sub_baby

feels guilty

2009-09-06T21:11:41Z

am worried that was cuz of me we did not go to party or watch movie. you promise you got to do exactly what you wanted to do last night?

more entries

2009-08-27T19:50:59Z

i know you said you wanted to see me write more but every tume i think i have a topic lately we end up discussing it verbally before i got a chance to write it....

i woner how you feel about journal prompts...i found a site for them. Here are some i liked, maybe you can think of others.

“A slave’s life is mostly composed of patience and study. Yes, study. If not with actual books, then following the example of greater, senior slaves. Or learning every nuance of their owner’s character, so that they can more completely and seamlessly offer themselves at the right time and in the right manner.” – Laura Antoniou

“Our life evokes our character. You find out more about yourself as you go on. That’s why it’s good to be able to put yourself in situations that will evoke your higher nature rather than your lower.” -Joseph Campbell

Do you find that your spirituality expresses itself in your service?

"We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment.”- Jim Rohn

Are you a stay-at-home submissive? How did you adapt to your new routine? If you aren’t stay-at-home, is this a dream of yours? Why or why not?

How would you train someone else to serve your owner, if you were ever placed in the position to do so?

If you found out that someone had lied to you about something significant from the beginning, would you want to rebuild the relationship or walk away? What is your personal ‘line of tolerance on honesty’?

How do you choose to react to anger, jealousy, frustration? Do you believe you can choose your behaviors, or that overwhelming emotions control your actions?

What is your definition of a service submissive? Is this something you strive for or attain or is it a natural part of your being?

Are you micromanaged? Do you find you flourish best in a micromanaged environment? Why or why not?

If the government brought back real and legal slavery, would you sign yourself over to your Owner as his/her slave?

Has surrender given you ‘new eyes’ to view your world?

Do you consider yourself proactive, reactive, or a blend of the two?

“I am not influenced by the expectation of promotion or pecuniary reward. I wish to be useful….” -Nathan Hale

today i really like this one:

"We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment.”- Jim Rohn

that kind of goes along with my motto: "to have an extraordinary life requires extraordinary effort"" and my other motto "don't sacrifice what you want most for what you want now" although that second one should maybe not get "motto" status as it is not original and actually came from the pro-anorexia community :(

anyway it has to do with being willing to make sacrifices of investment rather than sacrifices of neccessity. Everybody can make sacrifices in times of scarcity, when they have to. One of the tricks to success in the lifestyle and in life in general is being able to make sacrifices of comfort, convenience, leisure, etc. without circumstances forcing you to.

talking to myself

2009-08-13T14:53:28Z

“Submissives need to be told what to do. Slaves need to do what they are told.” – Unknown

Does this parallel your paralysis in the face of anyone's displeasure? As in, you don't need to be told what to do- you have plenty of your own ideas- but you are not capable of acting on those ideas unless they are exactly what the authority wants...does this mean feeling resentment at having plans thwarted by authority's preference is not failure, in that the inability to just do it anyway represents success?

Like Boys Camp- felt unable to go when told "do what you want" although technically could have gone without disobedience- it was only when (however grudging) acknowledement that going was the right thing for me that I was able to proceed with plans.

ALSO

2009-05-27T16:24:36Z

is ageplay SIG outing Saturday 6/13- kite flying and picnic in park somewhere near warehouse district downtown by i-10? is also day of SAF but NOT grocery day, so...is doable?

I HAS THE BESTEST DADDY

2009-05-22T18:06:22Z

i guess one might think i has been remiss cuz i am just now getting around to saying OMG MY DADDY GAVE ME THE BESTEST BIRFDAY!!!!! one MIGHT think that or one might think mah birfday is not really over yet cuz tonight (INDIGO GIRLS) is part of it. let's go wif that one

but Monday (official brifday) was really fun and my bear got new clothes and i got to eat pizza and the uniberse paid off its ice cream debt and i got spankins for my real age and my lil age so...jes..was yummy.

AND I AM SO ESSITED ABOUT TONIGHT OMG OMG

Eathter!

2009-04-13T14:53:05Z

i got those booteeful tulips and THE UNICORN PLUSHIE I HAVE BEEN WANTING SINCE FOREVAR and a Bratz horsie! And a whole bag of sugar-free chocolates! I HAS THE BESTEST DADDY! Also one of those photos (wif 2 pink bows instead of one green one) was taken at the library. I HAS THE BESTEST JOB TOO.

Everyone's doing it

2009-02-19T19:46:10Z

1. Can you cook?
2. What was your dream growing up?
3. What talent do you wish you had?
4. Favorite place?
5. Favorite vegetable?
6. What was the last book you read?
7. What zodiac sign are you ?
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
9. Worst Habit?
10. Do we know each other outside of lj?
11. What is your favorite sport?
12. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14. Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15. Tell me one weird fact about you:
16. Do you have any pets?
17. Do you know how to do the macerana?
18. What time is it where you are now?
19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22. What color eyes do you have?
23. Ever been arrested?
24. Favorite fictional character of all time?
25. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it?
26. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
27. What's your favorite hangout?
28. Do you believe in ghosts?
29. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30. Do you swear a lot?
31. Biggest pet peeve?
32. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Ivan's Birfday

2008-10-16T17:01:53Z

Meme

2008-09-26T20:59:12Z

Instructions: Comment on this entry to be given a letter. Then post in your journal with 10 of your favorite things starting with that letter.

1. Nearness 2 Daddy
2. Naptime wif Dady
3. Nacy Drew, the book series
4. Nancy Drew, the movie
5. Napkins
6. Necks
7.Naughty thoughts
8.Neatness and order
9.Neapolitan ice cream
10.Noodles

i went on a friend-adding frenzy!

2008-08-27T18:10:06Z

i just added a bunch of ppl who commented or posted on other journals/communities that i read....so, welcome to my world if you want to be friends....dis journal not always that interesting and frequently there are entries that are on my Daddy-only filter and there are a lot of entries that are nothing but lists and schedules but there may occasionally be stuff worth reading as i work my way step by step through the various stages of my first "real" bdsm relationship (Daddy finds the "b" in bdsm boring lol....first "real" bdsm relationship b/c there was a previous FTM Dom for whom i was much-abused 24/7 slave for one year prior to meeting the bestest Daddy). Besides bdsm i am also into ageplay so some of that pops up from time to time as well...

cast of characters:
Daddy= leathrdyke the yummiest most patientest dyke Daddy a lil girl could ask for
sub_baby = 38-going-on-11. Teen librarian by day, little-girl submissive by night. needs a lot of structure. Hence all the schedules.
Ivan= Ivan the Terrier. 14-year-old Rat Terrier who has been with sub_baby since Christmas of 1994. The second most spoiled dog in the world. Needs a lot of walks.

hokay i guess dat's all dere is to know about me right now...it occurs to me that this entry would prolly look good on my profile page so maybe i will copy there too...

lol found this book in my collection

2008-08-13T19:04:39Z

sub_baby @ 2008-07-25T09:10:00

2008-07-25T14:10:21Z